Memos from Momo

Dr. Clovon

2011-07-31T17:43:00.002-05:00

July 21 had my post op appointment with Dr Clovon and it went really well. The incision looks really good and all heal up. I ask her if I was in menopause and she said full force. Every thing was good on pathology report no cancer. I ask her about what happens now that I don't produce any estrogen. She said my body still produces a little from the adrenal gland. I ask her about my bones she suggest that I have a bone density test done just to see if I have healthy bones. I go back to see her on Aug. 25 for a pelvic examine just to be sure that am all heal inside. Which I am sure I am. So every thing is going so good. Its all the work to God who I give all my thanks to. I would be no where if it wasn't for him.

Dr. Oommen

2011-07-20T21:11:00.002-05:00

Today July 15 had my visit with Dr Oommen. I had lost 3 lbs since July 6 probley due to my surgery. My lab work was good except my blood sugar was high. So I guess I need to go have that check out. Dr Oommen said every thing check out good. He still plans on keeping me on a 10 yr plan if not longer. He said I will still be on my Tamoxifen and he was very serious about the 10 yr plan and longer. He said the cancer I had is a very sneaking one. If taken a pill every day is whats going to keep the cancer away then that is just a drop in a bucket. I love my team of doctors.

Surgrey

2011-07-13T14:30:00.002-05:00

Had my surgery on July 6 at 8:40 in the morning. Mandi came to pick me up at 5:30 and I check in at 6a. Went to a room and put on my hospital gown and Mandi and I watch a little TV for about a hour. Nurse came in and ask question and put like 4 hospital bracelets on and took some blood. About 7a they came in got me took me to pre-op room and Mandi went and sat in waiting room. In pre-op room they gave me a IV and had several different nurses and doctors come talk to me. They have gave me a bag of fluids, a bag of meds, a bottle of Tylenol thru my IV. Then Dr. Cloven came to talk to me then they gave me a dose of what they call happy drug. I remember when it took affect and it didn't take long for it to hit me. I remember being wheel out thru some double doors and that was it. I don't even remember getting on the operating table and them putting the mask on me to knock me out the rest of the way. With my last surgery I remember getting on the table by myself and breathing thru the mask.

Then when I woke up they were talking to me and they were shaking me. They were taking off the ekg stickers and next thing I new they were wheeling me to my room. Room 212 same room I had before with my last surgery. And there sat Candice and Mandi. I remember I could not talk I had lost my voice it was down to a whisper. I guess it was from the tube. Candice show me that they hospital had a nice hand bag with shampoo,bath soap, conditioner, and lotion in it. The nurse brought me some water and hot tea for my throat it was very sore. I drink some the hot tea. Candice had to leave so Mandi and I sat there and visited. Later La Sha came up to visit and she brought me some hot Starbuck tea and lemon drops and a cinnamon bread. I drink on the Starbuck tea and ate a bite of the bread. Dinner came and it was clear liquids so I drink the broth and some of the other drinks on the tray. It wasn't to long after that every thing came back up. I mean I throw up every thing and it was a lot and I could smell the mint from the Starbuck tea. The nurse even said that was alot. Later Mandi left to go home. Then I laid down and went to sleep for the night. Thursday was a good day seen Dr Cloven and they took the cath out and got to take a shower then got to go home that afternoon.

I go back to my post-op appointment on July 21th. I will say this surgery was a little more intense then the last surgery. A little more pain and harder to get around.

Surgery

2011-06-28T16:22:00.002-05:00

Well I had pre-op today and it went good. So I am ready for surgery next Wednesday on July 6th. About a three week recovery and then am good to go back to work. All looks good and then just one more after that. I am doing good and feeling good. Every body always ask me how are you doing. I am really bless to say I feel wonderful. Not only do I feel wonderful I look at things so different now and that makes me also feel wonderful. I still have so many more blessings to come and so looking forward to them.

Surgery

2011-06-01T15:43:00.002-05:00

Ready to go my next surgrey is July 6th for the Robotic Hysterectomy. Over night stay in the hospital. And 2 week down time and back to work. Ready to get this one over with. Another preventive for cancer. I am bless to have my family with me as I go thru this surgrey. Can't say much for friends cause I never hear from them. Most of all I got God in my life and he has my back.

Love you all in God's name!

Dr. Appointment

2011-05-24T13:23:00.003-05:00

Had my follow up with Dr. Chow and every thing went really good. I don't go and see her for another 6 months. I am please with how things went.

Just waiting for a call from Dr. Clovon to see when my next surgery is. It will be sometime in July. It will be another cancer preventive and can't wait to get that over with. It will go really well. Only 2 weeks of recovery.

Then August 1 a dr. appointment with Dr. Heisten I am very excited about that appointment. I am doing really well and staying busy. Filling my time and empty space with the grand kids. Not much time for a social life but who needs one when I have my kids and grand kids that care so much about me.

I have the best children and grand children anyone could ask for.

Love

Wow!

2011-05-04T16:59:00.002-05:00

What a beautiful day out and today has been so awesome. Well went today to see Dr Shide radiation oncology. She said that my skin is looking so good. And that I look very health. She release me so I don't have to see her any more. She really love my hair and thought it look really good. Have gotten so many remarks on it looking good. And I will say that I think it looks really cute. Short and sassy! Next week visit with Dr Cloven to see when that surgery is. Keeping myself busy since my friend decide to stop talking to me. I have been keeping my days and nights fill.

Life is so good!

Love you all!

Dr Oommen

2011-04-23T17:00:00.003-05:00

April 15 had a visit with Dr Oommen my medical oncologist. Lab work was good he said he examine me and said ever things felt and look good. Gave me a name of a reconstruction dr. But still can't have any thing done until Oct. He ask me about having my female organs taken out. That will come in the near future. I told him I go back to see Dr Clovon in May to discuss it. He still wants to keep me on a 10 yr cancer treatment plan. I will continue to see him every 3 months for the next 2 yrs. All is looking good. My skin looks so much better but still red and hot and warm to the touch. I figure about 6 weeks until the redness and the warmth is gone. Now just can't expose it to the sun cause it will burn. So if it get expose to the sun I have to put on alot more sun block. But all and all it really looks good.

I am so bless and I have God watching my back!

Happy Easter!

Week on End!

2011-04-12T12:20:00.002-05:00

Saturday April 9th what a day. Did the 5k run/walk for Race For The Cure! And boy was it long and rough specially if you didn't do any work out. It was great all the people walking there were so many. Thank you to every one that walk with me and that donated. But I am paying for it now my legs and back hurt so bad. Here it is Tuesday and am still hurting. I blame it on my special friend. He left me hanging. And what I mean by that I was riding with him and doing other things with him that kept excrise those legs and back. But nooooooooooooooooo! He just drop me like a hot potato. I don't get that excrise any more. I sure did pay for it. Its all his fault. My skin is looking really good I just have some other issue with some thing going on under my right arm. Just waiting for the doctor to call back. I so wish I could be out riding its so nice out. I just want to say again thanks for the donation!

Radiation! Another Chapter closed!

2011-04-01T13:10:00.003-05:00

I am so done with my radiation. Skin is pretty much raw but it will heal. My daughter had flowers sent to Texas Oncology. It was such a nice surprise and the note was awesome. She said I was her Hero. Brought tears to my eyes. And tonight she is taking me out to eat. She has been there with me every step of the way. I could not ask for any thing more. My van is also paid off. I don't have to worry about that any more. I am so blessed. Now if my friend would just talk to me again all would be great. But we can't have every thing. I just want to say thanks for all the support and readers. My journey is not over with yet there will be two more surgery. And not sure if the journey will ever be over with. So this concluds another chapter in my life!

Life

2011-03-27T13:03:00.002-05:00

Life isn't always beautiful Sometimes its just plain hard Life can knock you down It can break your heart Life isn't always beautiful You think your on your way Its just a dead end road At the end of the day But the struggles make you stronger And the changes make you wise And happiness has its owe way Of taking its sweet time No life aint always beautiful Tears will fall sometimes No life aint always beautiful But its a beautiful ride!

Weekend!

2011-03-19T09:32:00.003-05:00

Its Saturday and so pretty outside. I have one thing to say about my friends which aren't very many. Friends are someone who keeps in touch with you, someone that is there for you, someone that will give you space when you need it and wait for you to contact them, someone that wont bale on you, someone that is there for support NOT TO FEEL SORRY FOR YOU!, someone that will be there to help you if you need something, someone that puts a smile on your face, someone that trys to lift you when your down, someone that don't run when times get rough, someone to take you to doctors appointment if you need the support, someone that has a ear and will listen no matter what time of the day or night, someone you can cry on there shoulder. So many more factors on what a friend is. For those that knows me I will go to great lenghts to be there for you and except nothing in return.

For those that knows what am going thru don't FEEL SORRY FOR ME cause am no charity case and I don't want your pity if you look at me and you feel sorry for me then your not a true friend. Cause you don't stay in contact with someone cause you feel sorry for them you stay in contact with them cause you are a friend.

I don't need any one nor do I want any one to feel sorry for me am a big girl and I can handle what ever is handed to me I don't need no pity. Some times I need a shoulder to cry on some times I need someone to just listen but I have no one. But thats ok like I said am a big girl maybe I don't need all that.

True friends are like fragile cargo handle them with care and take care of them!

I hope you all have a good weekend and a great week going to be nice out!

10 more days!

2011-03-18T15:14:00.002-05:00

So glad its the weekend. Am ready for this 3 day weekend. And next weekend gets better cause it will be a 4 day weekend.

Only 10 more days come Monday. So glad that this chapter is closing on me. Just one less thing I have to deal with so let hope that it is working and there will be a good out come cause I know that I sure am paying for it. Riding weather so lets see if that is going to happen. I am ready to ride didn't get to last weekend. It has been such a busy week for me to much running going on.

Have a good weekend.

11 Days

2011-03-17T14:38:00.003-05:00

The day was ok. Don't have to much to say but its so pretty outside and nice. And not sure why I have the blues.

Hope everyone had a good one!

12 more!

2011-03-16T15:54:00.002-05:00

It was such a good day. Had someone try to bring me down but it didn't work. Radiation is good and went to go see the social worker afterwards. And was very please to hear some good news. I was on top of the world after that news. Being running all day now rest for the wicked!

I hope that you all had a great day!

13

2011-03-15T16:15:00.003-05:00

Well lets see good day a little cool outside but still a good day. So had a radiation tech ask me today if she has talk to me about Boost. I said no what is that. She said the last 7 days of radiation I will get a Boost of radiation. Just when I thought I had all I needed they think I need a boost. She told me that on the 22nd my appointment time would be a little later then normal. I will have to go thru a trial run of the Boost. That means laying on that table a little longer then normal while they take more films and mark me for the Boost. Which mean more drawing and stickers. Wow am so excited I can hardly wait. But If needed so be it. The big machine that does my radiation they will put another part of it which will make the beams target only on my scar. They want to give they scar area a Boost. Which am thinking this is a big scar thin but long.

Then I ask the doctor about why the back of my right shoulder is also turning red. He explain that the angle that the radiation is going in is also coming out the back of my shoulder. So I guess the radiation is going right thru me kind of spooky cause I never really look at it like that. I just thought that the back of me was also getting it. Well you know what I mean. I guess you will have to be there to know what am talking about.

On top of that on the 22nd that morning I will be having a sona-gram done which Iwill be having to drink why to much water with in 30 mins and hold and not go to the bathroom. Another thriller looking forward to. But there is a reason for that nothing wrong just precaution to keep the cancer from coming back. And checking to make sure my meds. and that it hasn't spread any where else. So see all for good reason. I am game any one else?

Cancer Prayer:

For our fears, give us courage.
In our tears, find a song.
For our doubts, grant conviction.
Where we're weak, make us strong.
Turn our faults into blessings.
Turn our grief into praise.
And for dark hours of sadness, Give us bright golden days.
Turn our anguish into worship.
Turn our hearts to heaven's way.
And for the blessings you have given,
make us thankful every day.

Amen!

14 more days!

2011-03-14T14:16:00.002-05:00

Well just a little over two weeks to go. I am so getting there. Its been a good day got up early and went to get little boss lady ready for day care since her mother didn't. Then went and did radiation then came back pick up Peyton, Jaxson, and Jayden went out to Burleson to pick up my little 2 day check. If it wasn't for my friend then I would not of had the gas to go pick it up what a special friend. And let me tell you my skin is itching so bad on the right side where the radiation is being done at. The creams are not helping with the itching. But I just have to suck it and deal with it. Not to much longer!

Day not sure!

2011-03-11T12:38:00.002-06:00

I just know that I have 15 more days left. And today I am tired and have to work tonight. So think I am going to try and lay down before I play MOMO and have kid duty. Love them grand babies. But first have to get all cream up.

You all have a wonderful weekend I know I will!

16

2011-03-10T15:44:00.002-06:00

Half way done 16 more days. I am over the hump and when I am done with all this radiation and I can go back to working what ever I will be looking for a new job. I can't deal with my work place not listening about what days I can work and what days I can't work. I have been dealing with this problem every since I have gotten cancer. I even filled out a new sheet on what days I am available to work. But for some reason they just can't seem to understand it.

I try to work with them and even give in to give this past weekend. But they just don't want to work with me. I am so done with it.

What is one to do?

17

2011-03-09T12:34:00.002-06:00

That's right 17 more days! Moving right along. Tired but was tired before I did radiation. Got to get me some energy meds. I will be ok after Friday!

Tough and plan on staying that way nothing can bring me down.

Love you all! And you know who all is!

18 more days!

2011-03-08T15:52:00.002-06:00

I have done a total of 15 radiation and have only 18 more days left. After yesterday was not sure if I wanted to keep going on and doing them. Today has not been to bad of a day.

I just need to get mine mind into a mode of not wanting what I want. Not giving up cause I am a bigger fighter. One day I will!

I hope you all have a good day!

Yes another rough day!

2011-03-07T15:41:00.002-06:00

All I can say is 19 more days!

I did go today to the other house and pick up a few stuff. And was looking around at what use to be my room. And my thoughts were I don't belong here. So I wonder where do I belong? Do I belong any where?

Life!

2011-03-06T12:55:00.003-06:00

We don't always get what we want in life. Then there or others that does. If we don't get what we want doesn't mean we didn't apply ourselves. It just means that it wasn't for us.

So many people are so afraid of taking chances or being hurt that they miss out. I know I have been there. So if you want something in your life be sure that you can have it. That goes back to my saying DON'T WANT WHAT YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T HAVE! LOVE LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN HURT! DANCE LIKE NO ONE IS WATCHING!

Some times I wish I could share what I want and yes what I need. But sometimes it better left unsaid cause you know that you can't have it.

If we refuse to live from our hearts, we will live in the fantasy of denial or the sterile prison of caution.

Tough Day!

2011-03-04T16:15:00.002-06:00

Well did another day of radiation. And I think it is catching up with me. I am really wore out today. Come Monday will be day 20. And I am tired it seems like I still have a long ways to go. Am not even half way there. When I get down to 16 more days I will be half way there.

Am tired just plain tired today. Glad not work or radiation this weekend. I do have to do laundry and spring cleaning but going to take it easy. See am to tired to say much going to go rest. You all have a great weekend.

Why settle for good with you can have great!

Another Day Down!

2011-03-03T15:35:00.003-06:00

That's right another day down with radiation. Just 21 more days to go. Not to bad getting a good tan on my right side. I guess I know what they mean when they say i will be more tired. Had a good day spent it with La Sha and took her to go visit my aunt. It was a nice vist. Got several unexpected text from someone that really made my day! Yep I was all smiles it was great!

Now have to go to work tonight and this weekend its suppose to get cold Saturday. Am suppose to do some spring cleaning and do laundry.

I am having such a great day! With all this cancer stuff going on all I can say is that this CANCER MESS WITH THE WRONG BITCH!

22 more days and looking good!

2011-03-02T16:33:00.002-06:00

Well came home from work around 8:15 this morning. Fix coffee jump in shower and watch a little TV. Headed off to radiation it was quick. Got social worker to sign off on some transportation papers. Then went to other Texas Oncology and got them to sign off on some papers. Then came home sure didn't want to since it was so pretty out side. Any way watch some more TV with La Sha. Then had to go to CVS and pick up script. Then back home again sure didn't want to since it is so pretty out side. Just didn't want to be in the house today.

I thought about motorcycle riding, thought about long skirt, thought about 008, thought about being free. It was just to nice to be in doors.

Only 22 more days left of radiation and am so looking forward to it. Then I need to decide when to have the other stuff done.

Decision, Decision why can't someone else make them? Just kidding on that subject I want to make the decision.

Later everyone!

23 More Day!

2011-03-01T18:02:00.002-06:00

What a day. Watch a good movie this morning then off to radiation. It went really good and seen the doc afterwards. Dr. Shide said every thing looks good and stay on top of the creams. Then I went to go have lunch to kill some time. After lunch went to Dr. Clovon the gyn. She told me what my options were. And in no hurry to get it taken care of. In April I will have another transvag sonogram done. Then I will have to decide when to do it.

Decision, Decision!

24 More Days!

2011-02-28T19:40:00.002-06:00

Lets start out by saying this weekend was awesome! Wish that it didn't have to end but I can't have every thing.

Did my radiation today and it was ok. They had a little trouble lining me up with my markers. So they had to do more x-rays. Then I guess they finally got me line up right. After that it went really smooth. On the other hand it was a busy day. Got up at 6a and then went grocery shopping and then to radiation, then drove to Arlington to pick up little boss lady (Layla). Kept her for the rest of the day. Went to CVS to pick up her and my medicine. Layla had to take with her a tool box of crayon thru out the whole store. Then went over to Walgreen and pick up more medicine. Then to end they day cook dinner and got on computer and did all my farming. Boy I need to get a life.

25 More!

2011-02-25T16:00:00.002-06:00

Yes I am still counting. The way I see it when am done with my radiation its just another chapter in my life that is close and another one will open.

Its been a busy day today. Spelt in until 7a and then got ready and went to go visit my aunt that I hadn't seen since my mother pass away in 1975. It was so good to see her and also got to see my uncle. Then went to go do radiation it went really quick and getting pretty red. After that had to go pick up Jaxson from school then went to my other home. Visit with them for a while. And looks like a busy night for me tonight. I get to baby sit the G-babies. But tomorrow am busy, busy, busy! And can't wait looking forward to it. Get to see my friend! What more could I ask for.

Look out weekend!

26 More Days!

2011-02-24T12:29:00.002-06:00

Only 26 more days and the weekend is coming up. Had a little longer wait today to get radiation done. They took x-rays today and then the treatment. X-ray are to make sure that my markings are still line up. Every time I go in they strap my feet and turn me this way and that way to be sure I am line up with the beams. I guess the treatment are making the skin tighter cause today when I lay my arm in the holder it pulls more in my chest and is so much tighter. I really thought that after doing this and stretching my arm every day it would get better and not so tight. But it is just the opposite. I guess care it is cooking the tissues and skin. Got alot of good remarks about my hair so it wasn't such a bad day!

So now its time to eat then pick up Peyton and go pick up Layla. Then take Peyton to basket ball practice and then to Jaxson Baseball practice. In stead of being a sports mom I am a basket ball and baseball MOMO!

What would I do with out my grand kids to keep me running and keep me living? I love them babies!

Another Day Gone! 27 more!

2011-02-23T16:36:00.003-06:00

27 more days to go moving right along. Starting to turn a little red or as they said blush to the train eye. Today was ok my chest felt a little tighter then usual. Had a little more trouble getting the arm in the holder on the table. And again today was Bolus day. Alot of cream afterwards and the chest is tender when I put on the cream.

I get to start back to work next week. Am down for 3 nights. Then the next week should be for 4 nights. Still going to take me a while to get on my feet. But I will get there and I have plans!

Love like you have never been love even if you don't get it in return!

28 more days to go!

2011-02-22T13:10:00.002-06:00

That's right 28 more days to go. I got a week under my belt. Today was a good day. Seen the Dr. Shide the oncologist. I will see her every Tuesday. She said my skin still looks ok. But she didn't really except to see to much of a change since its only been a week. She made sure I was using the cream. So tomorrow will be the use of Bolus. They didn't use it today so the radiation went a little deeper. Any way it has been really a good day.

To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp. He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

Concentrate on this sentence.....The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.

Monday!

2011-02-21T12:01:00.002-06:00

29 more days to go!

This Monday has been really good. Went to take care of some stuff in Burleson and then went and did radiation. I am feeling pretty darn good. Nice day for a ride. But we can't always get want we want. So make the best of it!

MY WISH FOR YOU!

_Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
_Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.
_Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.
_Where there if fear, I wish you love and courage

Weekend!

2011-02-20T13:32:00.002-06:00

Had a wonderful weekend. Lets see after the week being so long and busy I was ready for the weekend. Saturday took the little boss lady (Layla) to the doctor and then came home and got her something to eat. Got a text asking if am ready head your way. Low and behold my friend wanted to take me for a ride. Told him I would meet you at the duplex. I was ready to go and ride. We road all day the wind was a bit much but I didn't care I was on the back of the bike and with him. Then went to his sister and ate and I felt very privilege. I must be doing something right. I got to ride two weekends in a row. Now that I have weekends off I can do so much more and not miss out.

I hope every ones weekend was as good as mine!

Radiation 30 More!

2011-02-18T20:16:00.002-06:00

First week of radiation done. 30 more treatment to go. This week was ok except Thursday but I made it.

30 more to go!

Suck it up and life goes on!

Crappy Day!

2011-02-17T17:54:00.002-06:00

Today was horrible set at a doctor office for over a hour. Check in early also and didn't get seen by the doctor. I was at my breaking point. I finally told them I had been waiting for a hour and I have to reschedule. I have to go to my radiation appointment. She told me that she would have the nurse call me. I left and went out to the van and call the nurse and told her I need a new appointment. I told her that I waited over a hour and I have other appointment. She said am sorry can you come after your radiation appointment. I told her no I have to be some where at two. She said do you want me to call radiation and have them reschedule that appointment. I told her now I need to reschedule. I was so up set. Went and did my radiation and its hard afterward. My chest is more sore and tight. And arm hurts from being pulled.

Then went to go pick up Shreai up from work and had a flat. Now I know how to change a tire. But never change one on a van. The spare was under the van didn't have a clue on how to get it off. Shreai didn't either. Some guy came by and show us how to get the spare down.

What a day! Ready for it to be over with. Be so glad when the weekend comes.

Radition Markings!

2011-02-15T19:33:00.003-06:00

Went today to do a trial run for my radiation treatment. I laid on this table with my arms over my head for a good 30 minutes. The tech took like 6 x-rays. In between the films she mark me with a permenet marker and took measurements where they are going to do. On my right side I now have beside the 3 tattoos I have draw in blue lines from my collar bone down the center of my chest off to my side up my side under my right arm pit. Now keep in mind this is done with a blue permenet marker. Then on each corner they put that good tape so if the blue lines come off they would still know where to hit with radiation. The tech did say try not to wash off the blue lines except I could wash off the one above my coller bone so that when I wear my blouse I want be self conscience does it really matter if I am. The blue marks don't measure up to having your breast remove. Now tomorrow I will get the first shot done. And then after that Monday thru Friday at 11:15 every day until I have done all 33 treatments.

What a experience!

Sunday

2011-02-15T19:29:00.002-06:00

Got up and went to church came home to a nice surprise. My friend came by to take me for a ride. It was so nice to get out and enjoy the sunshine. The ride was awesome rode to Burleson and had a good time had good food and sat around and visit. The ride back was great the weather was so nice it wasn't to cool didn't need my heavy jacket it was great. Then another surprise came Sunday night and I was surprise at that. That was even better so can't complain back about my Sunday. Just need more of it!

1 month check up!

2011-02-10T14:54:00.002-06:00

I went to see Dr. Chow today. Blood pressure was way up not sure why it was 151/92 to high for me. Dr. Chow said am healing really good. I can go back to work in March 1 but still not lift any thing over 10 lbs. She said she is going to give me a break from her. I will see her back in 3 months on May 18th. She made sure that I went to go see Dr. Oommen and ask what he had to say. I told her that I got scan and tattoo for my radiation and when that starts. And told her that I was going to see Dr. Clovon on the 17th and she said that's good and that will be one less problem to worry about. So every thing is looking good she release me to drive. So now am ready to start radiation every thing is looking good. I am on my way to a new point in my life. Continue to ride with me on my journey and see how radiation goes it will be a experience.

Smile its getting better!

Radiation!

2011-02-09T19:03:00.002-06:00

Went to Dr. Shide yesterday and got scan and tattoo for radiation. They put these wires on me and then scan my chest. After scanning they took pictures of my chest. I thought when they told me they were going to take pictures I thought they were talking about the scan. But no they took a 35 mm camera and took pictures of my right side and the top of my chest and left side. After that he tattoo once on my right side and then tattoo me on the center of my chest and then once on the left side. After that he took a permanent marker and put a big X on each tattoo then put a clear tape on them. The tape stays on and the tattoos they are not to be scrub off. They said they stay on pretty good. I go back next Tuesday for a trial run and they told me not to wear a good shirt cause they were going to mark my chest up pretty good. Not sure the reason for that but it is a one time thing. Then on Wednesday I go for my first radiation treatment and then every day Monday thru Friday. A six week long 33 treatments. And the cream is a prescription it is about 100.00 a tube. I am glad to finally get this going and get it over with.

As far as my appointment with Dr. Chow it was suppose to be today. But since Ft. Worth ISD was close so was her office. So I still have not been release to go back to work or drive. But I am already driving sometimes we have to do what we are not suppose to. I will have to reschedule tomorrow to see when I can get in to see her.

Here it is Friday!

2011-02-04T14:38:00.002-06:00

Well this has been a crazy week. First got a call Tuesday night from Dr. Shide they cancel my appointment due to the weather. Then come Thursday I call and cancel the other appointment due to the weather. School has been out all weekend due to the weather. This crazy Texas weather you never know about it. I just wish spring and summer would hurry and get here. I want to go riding and do some other stuff. I have two dr appointment next week and then one on the following week. Lets just hope that the weather is good. Being off for 6 weeks is hard. I just don't know what to do with all the time I have.

Any answer let me know.

Thoughts on the subject!

2011-01-28T16:40:00.002-06:00

Here are some things to remember when you are fighting any kind of cancer. How each moment of each day is one step forward. Each tiny step you take is a victory…or at least a step closer to victory. From just getting out of bed and brushing your teeth to everything more!! A Little Bit Stronger with each step! That is what the cancer battle is! We get a little bit stronger! Just a little bit stronger!! I am not giving you another hour or even another minute! I am busy getting stronger!!!!!

Just remember…you’re getting a little bit stronger!! Cancer is not for wimps! So, fight like a girl! Not just pink, but teal and navy blue and black and green and purple and yellow…Cancer of any color ribbon is not for wimps!!

Just remember you are not a WIMP!

Here we go new dr appointment!

2011-01-27T09:43:00.002-06:00

Had appointment on Jan 26 yesterday with the radiation doctor Dr. Shide. We talk for a while and then she examined me. Ask me to raise my arms over my head. Raise them as far as I could. She wanted me to start my arm exercise so I can get me arms all the way over my head. Have not been able to do the exercise since Dr. Chow nurse wanted me to wait and see if the fluid pocket would go down. Dr. Shide ask me to call her and see if I can go ahead and start them so by next week I will be ready to go. Well I decided to go ahead and start the exercise on my own. Did them this morning and let me tell you I could feel my skin really pulling. Some part it felt like my skin was fixing to tear. But I can handle the pain not that I like pain just know how to handle it. My fluid pocket still there and big and uncomfortable looks like I have been working out on one side. I just want it to go away.

Go on Feb. 2 back to Dr. Shide and she will do a CT scan to give her a ideal where to mark me with tattoos. I will have three of them on my right side. On my chest and under my arm. I will have a total of 33 days about 6 weeks of radiation Monday Thur Friday. All together it will take about 30 min total. That's getting undress and the beam. The beams will shot on and around the tats. Only side affect by the time am down I will have a really bad sun burn and maybe some fatigue. Not to bad she will give me a prescription for some cream to put on me.

So much to this whole cancer thing. At least I got the big thing over with. Now its just the baby steps but it just seems like a long, long process.

It just seems like some people don't want to be around you is it because they are embarressed for the way you look or they just don't care. Any way I still have a little ways to go!

Dr. Vist

2011-01-24T17:07:00.002-06:00

Ok so Sunday went to go see a client after church. When I got home I notice my shirt was wet. I had leakage around the drain tube site. La Sha took off the bandage and put on a fresh one. Over night it didn't drain very much. Been watching it all day and I notice that it was not draining at all but notice a big knot up above the scar. So went to go see the nurse and she is thinking a clot keeping it from draining so she try to work the clot out but no luck. She went ahead and took the drain out. She said probley what happen and La Sha said this also my body is healing so fast above the drain that it want allow the fluid to drain so I have fluid build up. So now I have to let my body asobe the fluid. So now I am drain free but still can't drive have to finish heal inside or do any heavy lifting so my body want make any fluid on my right side. We don't want any more fluid build up on that side since it has no way of draining thats way no more needle stick or blood pressure check on the right side. I am just happy to get the drain out. Was a little sad when she said I still can't drive. But thats ok we can't always have what we want!

Dr. Oommen Report

2011-01-22T10:38:00.002-06:00

Went to go see Dr. Oommen the chemo oncolgy Friday on the 21. Before surgery tumor was measuring 13 cm and by the time surgery it had gotten smaller down to 6 cm. It was stage 3A he also said that the tumor I had was just not on the left side of the breast it was in all quadrants which means the whold breast was cancer. He did say that the cancer I have is a sneaky one. Even thou I don't have any breast it can still come back on the chest wall and in the scar. So he still wants me to do radation for 6 weeks. You would think that will take care of it. Well not so much so I will keep taking the Tomaxfin for 5 yrs and then another drug for 5 more years after that. I will be 61 when I am through and his remake was if he was me he will still worry. And he wants me to have my ovaries remove so that my body don't produce any estrogen. He is wanting to get really aggresive with my cancer.

So he is sending me to a gyn and going to see about having my overies remove. I go see her next week. Then on the 3rd I get to go see the oncolgy for radiation. So I guess my treatment well consist of 10 years. As longs as I get my treatment and what ever it takes to keep it from coming back I'm good with it.

I just have to say life is good no matter what bumps in the road I hit God's got my back!

Thoughts, Emotions!

2011-01-20T09:13:00.003-06:00

What every you call them. I guess what ever illness you have that could be life threaten you are going to have emotions and different ones then normal. And no one really knows what you are going thru until they walk in your shoes. That's why when I knew that I had cancer first thing I did was contact a friend that had already been thru the chemo and surgery. It was not the same kind of cancer I have but he had already been thru and knew alot that help me.

After my surgery the scar didn't really bother me but they were not what I excepted. They are bigger then what I was told and what I excepted. But any way to late now. But when I got home many to times after I got out of the shower I would look in the mirror and wonder why did I do this to myself and shed a few tears. But before I left that bathroom I already bounce back and told myself this is not your fault and not your choice. The mastectomy was not a options and it was not like I was doing it just to make myself look better. And then I am ok with myself. Am just saying emotions they can really cause you to think different. I kept this to myself and finally told my daughter how I was feeling. She listen and shed a few tears with me. I don't share every thing with her I do keep alot to myself. When I do share with her she is very comforting.

But I feel I still have a great and positive out look on things. I could not have gotten thru alot of this with out GOD! with out La Sha with out Jack my riding buddy! and with out the support of all by family!

Jan 12

2011-01-15T11:08:00.002-06:00

Went to the doctor today first visit since surgery. Got 3 drains taken out I was so happy cause they sure do itch. One was a little read and irritate but its all good. The one drain they left is the one that is draining the most of the lymph fluid. The pathology report was not so bad. The tumor was 6 cm about the size of a lime. Dr. Chow said big for my size since I was not that big breasted any way. She took out 16 lymph nodes and only 4 was cancer. The margins were good and left breast was ok nothing there. So know the only thing that really bothers me is that under my right arm since they had to mess with the nerves is really sore and numb feeling. It feels like mush I don't like the feeling at all. But I am hoping with time that the feeling will go away and get back to normal. I am suppose to go back Monday on the 17th to get the other drain out as long as it is 30 and under of fluids. But it seems to be draining more and the nurse said it would. So not sure if I am going to get it out Monday. We will see. And let me tell you it is hard to take a shower with 4 drains hanging from your neck. One drain hanging from your neck is not so bad. So keep your fingers cross that I get the last drain out.

Jan. 5

2011-01-15T10:54:00.002-06:00

I know I am a little behind on blogging but come on who is really reading and keeping up with me. But here it goes Jan. 5 Wed. after my surgery I got to go home. My daughter La Sha came up to stay with me and a what I call a special friend came by just to visit before I went home (Jack). Now come on if someone knew you were going home that day how many friends would make the effort to come up there. They would probley wait until you got home. But not Jack he came up there and stay until I felt the hospital and walk out with me.

Got home around 1:30p and my x and his girl friend came by to visit me and brought me so flowers it was a nice visit. Then Mandi and the kids Kaydence and Hunter came by also to visit me. It was nice to see them. Didn't do to much but setting around and visit with company. Later that night La Sha empty 4 of my drains that was a experience since it was all new to me and to her. But she was awesome and was being be careful not to hurt me. La Sha has taken such good care of me. But she is a little upset cause I want take pain pills. But don't really need them to much.

By the end of the week was trying to do things for myself. Trying to take the load off of her which she was not to happy about. My scars are ugly and big and long. But hey its ok they will fade as time goes on and who is looking at my chest any way NO ONE! I can deal with it, its not pretty but it is something that had to be done. There was times when I would look at myself and ask why did I do this to myself. Then I have to stop and think this was not my choice, I didn't make his decision. It is something that needed to be done and then I look in the mirror and I am ok with it. You know how the mind works it makes you think silly things and then you have to re-check you thoughts and get back on the right page.

Surgery Day Jan 4th

2011-01-08T09:34:00.002-06:00

Well today is the big day Jan. 4th 2011. Got up at 4am and took a shower. La Sha and I left the house at 5am to go to the hospital. Had to be there at 5:15 and surgery was to start at 7:15. Got check in and went to day surgery they put me in room 5 and told me to take every thing off from head to toes and I mean every thing. I did ask about the panties and they said those too. My thought was why they panties but I did as they said. I think La Sha and I sat in there for a couple of hours before they came to get me. We both were wondering why they had not already come and did the IV. They just came and ask questions. Pretty close to 7am they wheel me out of the room and to the holding room La Sha follow me and gave me a kiss and we said we love each other. She could not come back to the holding room with me. She was out in waiting room by herself and I was in holding room by myself. I think finally she had some company. But not me.

They gave me my IV and gave me some pain meds. They ask all kinds of question and then Dr. Chow came by and ask if I had any question for her. Then off to the OR and I remember the nurse writing on the board 7:12a and me sliding over to the next table. They put a mask on me and that was it don't remember any thing else.

Hours later I woke up in recovery room and the nurses and Dr. Chow was concern about my heart rate shot way up there. Dr. Chow order ekg and they were giving me med to help bring down my heart rate. But I felt fine except for the fact I broke out in a real bad sweat and was hot. Not sure if it had any thing to do with my heart rate being high or if I was having a hot flash. It was bad the nurses were giving me like 4 wet wash clothes and put a fan on me. They gave me some ice chips to eat finally my heart rate came down enough I could go to my room after about 2 hrs in recovery.

Got to my room 212 and the nurse before every one could come in she took my vital sign and my blood pressure was kind of low and heart rate still a little high but it finally came down. The nurse also strip by drain bulbs. La Sha stuck her head in and she said i was fixing to get a lot of visitors. La Sha, Bubba, Bert, Mandi, Bryan, Shelly, and a special friend Jack came in to see me. It was nice having them all there put a smile on my face. I felt good was not sick at all. It was good that I had company. La Sha, Bert, Jack, Bubba, Mandi, Bryan, Shelly and the Pastor from church were all in the waiting room that was nice. I was a little surprise that Brother Donny the pastor from church came by. And my friend Jack very nice that he was there waiting and stay to see me afterwards very nice.

Thanks to all the support that I had that day my kids,family,and church family and special friend. And all the prayers that came in. What more could a girl ask for. Stay tune for more.

Hugs to all!

Part 8

2011-01-02T14:12:00.002-06:00

It was on Dec. 14 that he nurse call me and let me know that my surgery is schedule for Jan 4 and 7:15 am. She gave me all the instruction on what to do and who to call and schedule my pre-op. Got the papers in the mail on who to call for pre-op. I went in on Dec. 28 and got lab,chest x-ray, and Echo done. Then had appointment with a nurse by the name of Shreere Benton. La Sha and I went to see her and she explain every thing very well. What was going to take place in surgery and what was going to take place after surgery once I get to my room. She was very good and every thing was in detail. She went over the care with me for when I go home. Well the next time I will write will be after my surgery. Stay tune to see how it turns out.

See you then!

Part 7

2011-01-02T14:00:00.002-06:00

I had a vist with Dr. Chow today on Nov. 10 she was very please on how the tumor had gotten smaller. She was planting the seed for surgery. She wanted me to stay on the Tamoxifen for at least another month to see if it would get any smaller. I was to go back to her in Dec. on the 9th. That afternoon went to go see Dr. Oommen and he was still please at the results so we didn't have to hang around there very long.

On Dec. 8th went back to Dr. Oommen and I let him know that I didn't think it had gotten any smaller and lymph nodes were more noticeable. Did didn't think so but he assure us that it is just going to take time. The Tamoxifen is a slow results. My next time to see him will be Jan. 4th.

On Dec. 9th went to go see Dr. Chow. She check me out and she also said, she didn't think there was much different in the size from Nov. Then we started talking about surgery and what was going to be done. I am going to have a Modified Radical Mastectomy on the right side and she will be removing all the lymph nodes under the right arm. Then we talk about the left side do we take it or do we keep it. She thinks it will be good to take it since I already had trouble with it in the past. So on the left side she well do a Simple Mastectomy. Now it is just wait and see when the surgery is. She said that within the next week her nurse would be calling me and letting me know when it was.

Part 6

2011-01-02T13:43:00.002-06:00

Next chemo was on Sep. 15. Got lab work done and went to see Dr. Oommen and then off to chemo. It was not so bad. Shreai took me and La Sha showed up the drugs going in are not to bad its the after effect. Any way Shreai, La Sha and I played cards. It was great getting chemo and playing cards with your daughters. We had a good time and it didn't take very long. After this second around it was not so bad. Since Kim a nurse explain to La Sha and I how to take the nausea meds. We master it cause I didn't get sick not once go us. Went to church that night got a head ache but it was ok. Didn't get sick this around. But went back that Friday and got some more fluids and felt a little sick sitting in the waiting room. So they got me back pretty quick. Got my fluids and was good to go. I would say this time around was ok.

On the 21 of Sep. went and did my lab work. Blood counts down a little not to bad. My next around of chem is on Sept. 29. Went and got lab work and then went to see Dr. Oommen. He was not please with the results of the chemo. The tumor is not responding to the chemo. So I don't get chemo today. He is starting me on hormone therapy. Tamoxifen which is a estrogen blocker. This is what he thinks will make the tumor smaller. I started it that night and I take it every night.

My next vist with Dr. Oommen is on Oct. 13 he was very please on how the Tamoxifen is working It had made it smaller and moveable alot. He said it was justing going to take time and getting it really small for surgery. So my next vist with him will be on Nov. 10.

Part 5

2011-01-02T13:28:00.002-06:00

Picking up where I left off. My first round of chemo it wasn't to bad while getting done. I do know that later that night on Aug 31 I started getting a headache. It was Thursday that was not good at all. We are talking about being sick and I mean sick. I was sick all day Thursday and did alot of sleeping and throwing up. I was suppose to work that night but I needed up calling in. My sister came by La Sha house that's where I was staying. She brought me something to eat soup and drinks. She also help me bath while I was soaking in a tub. Boy I was sick bad stuff. Went that following Friday and got some fluids due to the fact with I was dehydrated. I even got sick while I was sitting in the waiting room. Poor La Sha it was kind of funny. She was gaging and some other lady help. They finally got me back and gave me the fluids. She explain how to use the nausea med and gave me a script of steroids.

Boy when I took the steroids 3 a day for 3 days. Wow! never want to do that again. I was up for 3 days straight. Could not sleep bad stuff. Went to bed thinking I am tired lay there for 10 mins. and I was up again looking for something to do. In those 3 days and nights I moved furniture around, hung stuff on the walls, went to work. Let me tell you I sure wanted to sleep I even sat on the side of the bed crying cause I wanted to sleep. I sure was glad when I was done take those. That was my first around of chem. Next week is lab work.

Busy week!

2010-12-30T07:31:00.002-06:00

Its been a busy week lets see Monday went to my La Sha house and help her clean the house, Layla and I help her bath and wash her hair since she can't lift her left arm over her head yet. Layla was so cute she help wash her back, arms,hands, and feet with conditioner then she took her clothes off and raise her hands and said "me". So I had to put her in the bath with La Sha.

Tuesday was my pre-op Shreai watch Peyton and La Sha and I went to the hospital. Got there right at 10am and did my talk with the nurse about my health histroy, then went and gave blood, echo, then to x-ray. After that went to go see a nurse navaigter she went in full detail what was going to happen the minute I check in on Jan 4th. From the time I go in to operating room to what Dr. Chow will be doing to recover to my stay. She was so good at explaining every thing.

Wednesday went and did some errands and then went to La Sha and took her to go pick up Peyton meds and then week over to my son house. And then back to the house came home and did laundry. Had game night with the kids and had a glass of wine.

Thursday finish up laundry. And relax.

Friday not doing to much except picking up my pay check. And keeping kids Friday night since no one wants to do any thing with my on New Year's Eve! It ok I will have my poppers and my Champan. The grandkids with have their juice and poppers.

Happy New Year!

Christmas

2010-12-27T06:17:00.002-06:00

Well lets see La Sha had her surgery on Wed. 22nd. So on the 24th I took Christmas Eva to her. I have been a bit much with all the grand kids there and the adults. First of all went to church for Christmas serve. It was a little crazy and noisy but fun. We had pizza, chips and dip, vegtable tray, summer sauage and cheese, cookies and candy. It was alot of visting and laughing. My children were all there and the kids daddy with his girl friend. Poor La Sha I bet she just wanted some peace and quite after that. I made the kids some reindeer food put on the lawn before they go to bed they really seem to like that.

Christmas Day was a quite one but good. Now comes the New Year!

I hope everyone else had a good one!

Dec. 22

2010-12-22T11:49:00.002-06:00

Today is Wed and Christmas is almost here. My daughter La Sha had her surgery today and it went well. They had to replace a lead that was not work so she will be staying over night and come home tomorrow.

I went to the doctor today for my back and got me so pain pills and muscle relaxer. And now my three grandsons and I are going to make reindeer food. A very fun fill day ahead for me. Then I get to deliver some flowers to a couple of clients from the company which I am not getting paid for and having to do it on my time. Boy can't wait until Dec. 30th.

House Sitting Is Done!

2010-12-20T15:45:00.002-06:00

Well my sitting went really well. I enjoy myself expect for when I was bored Friday night. Saturday after I got off work went to my son house and took dogs out and then straight to bed for me. Got up Sunday morning took dogs out and fix coffee got ready for work. Those dogs sure does like coconut foot cream. The whole time I was putting in on my foot they were trying to lick it off. After I got off Sunday night went home and straight to bed. I had a good day today helping my daughter clean Peyton room and his closet. And back to work tonight and then to the hospital tomorrow for my daughter pre op. then back to deep cleaning her house before her surgery and mine. Got a busy week ahead of me.

Well here I'm house sitting!

2010-12-17T21:01:00.002-06:00

Its Friday night and am house sitting for my son. This is great fix some food and it sure was good. Here i set in this big bed nice big bed. Watching TV it is so nice and peaceful. On my son computer even better. I guess I could us the quite time. I do have the dogs to keep me company. It would be nice to have some company but thats not happening. Oh well the lone time is not so bad. I just don't know what to do with myself. What does one do when they have lone time?

New News!

2010-12-14T12:13:00.003-06:00

Just found out today that my surgery is Jan. 4 at 7:15 am. Didn't think is was going to be this soon. I was looking at around the middle of the month. But you know what glad I'm getting it done early. Life is wonderful with all the blessings I have.

Dr. Results

2010-12-09T16:22:00.002-06:00

Went to the surgeon today. I told her that my right breast was draining blood and she said its normal for breast cancer. From when I seen her last month the tumor has not gotten any smaller. When I went to see Dr. Oommen on the 1st he said it has but I told him I didn't think it had and I could feel the lymph nodes a litter bigger. Well Dr. Chow also agree with me that it hasn't gotten any smaller. So we decide that I will have both breast remove. She said there is a enough skin to close up. But they are going to have to do some pulling and it is going to be tight. She will remove all my lymph nodes under my right arm. I will stay over night and go home the next day with 4 drain bulbs. Surgery she said will take about 4 hrs. After 4 weeks of surgery I will start radiation every day for 6 weeks. After about 3 months then comes Reconstruction. I am so ready to get the surgery done.

Love like you have never been love before!
Live one day at a time and treasure it, you never know when it will be your last day!

Been Thinking!

2010-12-06T14:59:00.005-06:00

Been thinking here lately not sure way maybe cause surgery is coming up pretty soon. Here are my thoughts. When you have some thing like cancer people go into hiding or they come out of the closet. So they keep in touch with you at the beginning and then they stop talking to you. I have had some friends that when they found out its all about keeping in touch asking and show their concerns and that they are prayer for you. And then you don't hear from them any more why is that? What are they afraid of? That they might get it or is it because I lost my hair or because I won't have a chest any more. And then there are the ones that don't talk to you in such a long time. And when they found out they are always checking on you, are they making up for lost time? I don't understand cause my cancer, my hair lost, and having one breast remove does not change me as a person. I wonder after I have my breast remove how many others won't have any thing to do with me. Its OK if no one wants any thing to do with me I'm find with it. But don't judge me by my cover you didn't before or did you! This has been on my mind alot here lately. Does it hurt me, no, it just disappoints me in how the ones that was close to you are not any more. So who are your real friends and who is your real family?

Dr. Results

2010-12-01T14:48:00.002-06:00

Visted with Dr. OOmmen today had lab work and port flush. Good ole doc said that the tumor seems to be shrinking more not alot but a little. He was telling me that if the margins are positive then I will have to do chemo with hormone threphy. The chemo will be in a pill form. He did say that if that happens then it is going to be rough for me. So lets hope that the margins are negative. Go back to see him Jan. 3. Next week will be vist with Dr. Chow.

After appointment went to go to eat with my La Sha and then went to mall and pick up a few things. No crowd that was nice. Then we went to Wal mart and back home.

Life is nice!

Need a Life!

2010-11-30T18:48:00.002-06:00

I am bored out of my mind. Nothing to do before work I was reading but can't read any more grand kids want let me. Off work tomorrow and nothing to do again. I really need a life. I guess I could finish my story on my cancer. Whats a woman to do?

Monday Night!

2010-11-30T16:50:00.002-06:00

Went to go meet with a special friend Monday night and had such a wonderful time. Could not have ask for a better time. Went to go eat dinner and hung out togeather. It was great!

Wonderful Weekend!

2010-11-29T08:10:00.002-06:00

Saturday my sister came over and we went to go eat then she went and bought me a beautiful necklace. Then we went to Grandbury and walk around town and went into some of the stores. It was nice hanging out with my sister it has been so long since we hang out and talk it was great.
Saturday night went to go spend the night over at my daughter house and hung out with Peyton.

Sunday went to church went them and then over to Kaydence and Hunter birthday party. And to top off Sunday I went to go have dinner that special friend. It was the best it was great. It was wonderful hanging out with him. Well have to do it again. Have not had such a wonderful weekend in such a long time.

Weekend!

2010-11-27T08:02:00.002-06:00

I got this weekend off and so excited about it. Its Saturday and suppose to go hang with my sister. She was suppose to call yesterday to set up time but have not heard from her. But it is still early so maybe she will call. If she don't then I will be bored out of my mind.

Sunday going to church and then to grandkids birthday party. And then Sunday evening going to go have dinner with a special friend. And off Monday life is good. So I think I will get off here and get ready for this day.

You all have a wonderful weekend!

Smile

Did You!

2010-11-14T07:45:00.002-06:00

Did you every have days were you are down and don't really no why? And that there are so many disappointments in that one day. And you try to bring yourself out of it and its not working. And did you every want something so bad but you know you can't have it? So why do we want it? Why do we want what we can't have.

Yesterday I went for a motorcycle ride and it was great a little cold but it was great. I am always up for a ride. It was nice to get out of the house and being with a riding buddy.

It is Sunday and no telling what today my bring. One can only guess!

New Doctor results

2010-11-14T07:39:00.002-06:00

Went to the doctor on Nov. 10th. Dr. Chow said that the tumor has gotten a lot smaller. She said she could probley do the surgery now. But she would like to give the hormone med that I am on another month to see if it will get even smaller that way there would be even more skin to close up with. After surgery still going to be radiation no matter what. She was very happy with the size of the tumor. So we may be looking at surgery next month or in Jan. Its all good. I go back to Dr. Chow on Dec. 9th to talk more about surgery.

Part 4

2010-10-26T09:19:00.002-05:00

After I seen Dr Chow on the 4th. It was the following week I had appointment for a Bone Scan on the 11th of Aug. And had appointment with a Dr. Bayouth on the 12th of Aug. to talk about putting in a port. And then on the 16th of Aug. had appointment for a CT Scan. They really hit me hard with all those appointments at once. Needless to say my work was not happy about it. But what can you say it was beyond my control. Sure I could have reschedule them all and give them a 10 days request off. But didn't want to why should when you have cancer you want to get it taken care of and get things rolling why wait.

On Aug. the 18th had appointment with the Oncologist Dr Oommen. La Sha and Jonathan went with me to that appointment. This is what he had to say after he examine me. My breast is 90% cancer. We would first try chemo. My chemo was set up to be done every other week. The day after chemo I go back and get a shot. The shot was to bring back up my blood cells to keep from getting any infections. The following week after chemo I had lab done. It seem like it was something every week. He also explain that the chemo was to get the tumor smaller before surgery. Just for the fact that the tumor was so big that if they remove it now there would not be enough skin to close up the incision. When I go back to see him on chemo day he would measure tumor. If the chemo was not doing its job then we have a back up plan Hormone Therapy. He wanted to get aggressive with the cancer first by using chemo.

Stay tune for my first chemo treatment.

Stressed Spelled
Backward Is
Desserts. Turn
Your Stress Into
Something Good.

Dr. Results

2010-10-20T15:54:00.002-05:00

Went to the doctor today since I have been on hormone threphy. It measure it and it went from 13 cm to 12 cm. So the new treament is working. He said it has gotten smaller and not so hard. So that is a good thing. To me it is the same size but it measure smaller. The lymph nodes have gotten smallar also. I can tell that they have gotten smaller. They are hard to find. I go to Dr Chow on 11/10 that morning and go back to Dr OOmmen on 11/10 at 1pm. So by the time I go back to see him and her it should be even smaller.

Great News!

Part 3

2010-10-19T13:29:00.002-05:00

So waited from July 2nd to the 8th to find out if it was cancer. To me that was a long wait. Just for the fact that it was a holiday weekend which delay things. I started calling back that following Tuesday. The results were not in yet. Then call again on Thursday and they told me that they should have already been in so the nurse call the lab. The lab told her that it would be Friday for sure when they are in. Call early Friday morning and got the results. They told me that the left breast was benign and that the right one was as they thought cancer. I ask about the lymph nodes and she said they were involved. I was surprise but not to surprise since I suspected any way. I ask her what they stage was and she inform me they didn't know until surgery. I ask her what kind it was and she told me Infiltrating/Invasive Lobular. I ask about the growth and she said my was a 2 which meant moderate, not to bad. First thing I did was call Moncrief and left them know that it was cancer. They told me to call The Tarrant County Health Department. I call them and they set me up appointment to come in and apply for Medicaid. Now in the mean time I still have not heard from JPS to see if it got their discount program. I went in on the 13th of July to apply for medicaid. They said they were going to do a fast track Medicaid. That is were it will only take 2 weeks to find out if I approve instead of the 40 days it usually takes. I was told to call them about on July 24th even if I don't here any thing about it. Then guess what I got a letting in the mail that I got JPS. But didn't get the discount program. I only got their regular program. I would still have to paid a co-pay. Don't get me wrong that's not bad at all. But I would have to pay 20 percent of any hospital bill or any kind of treatment. Can't do that I don't make enough money today specially if it comes to surgery. So I waited to see if I got medicaid. On July 22th I letter in the mail saying I got medicaid. I was so happy and relief. I call JPS and drop the program. I had to go to the nearest Tarrant County Health Department and pick up a temp medicaid card. Take it back up to the main office and show them I had medicaid so that the mammogram and biopsy would be paid for. It was on July 29th that I got my July medicaid in the mail. I call Moncrief again and told them I got medicaid. The next step they said for to find a breast surgeon. They gave me a list of several names on the phone. I pick one out and call. I pick out Dr. Chow and they schedule me appointment for August 4th. This is were it all begins.

August 4th. La Sha and my sister Shelly went with me to this appointment. They call me back first did vital signs and ask alot of questions. Then Dr Chow came in and talk with me and ask question then she examine me. When she was done she said she would meet me in the conference room. I went to go get La Sha and Shelly we went in there and Dr. Chow explain everything. She got a piece a paper and as she was talking she was drawing on the paper and writing everything down. She told me what the goals were. The were to 1. local control and then 2. system control. Which means to do medical chem and that means to do chemo. Then we would do surgery and then radiation. I will do 4 months of chemo every other week. Then I will do Surgery and then 6 weeks of radiation every day. Dr Chow told me I was not candidate for Breast Conservation Surgery. I would have to have Modified Radical Mastectomy. La Sha ask her about the left breast. She said it would not be unreasonable to remove it also. Just for the fact that I have had problems with it also. She said that they would set me up to have a Bone scan and Pet scan and set me up with a Oncologist.

Still tune for Part 4

Therefore, I choose for today:

Peace and not anxiety,
Good and not evil,
Love and not hate,
Gain and not loss.

When today becomes tomorrow, this day will be gone forever, leaving it its place what I choose today. I, alone, can choose to use today wisely-

Cancer Can't Rob Me Of This Day!

Part 2

2010-10-12T06:51:00.003-05:00

So I still have not heard any thing. I have a client that i care for at work and i was telling his mate what was going on. The next day when i went to work she told me that she stay up until 2am looking up all kinds of info and phone numbers on breast cancer. I belive that she is my angle. So Monday I started calling Moncreif Breast Center and left several message and kept calling every day until I got a hold of someone.

It was July 1 they call me back and i had appointment that afternoon for breast examine. After the exmaine they set me up appointment on the 2nd for a mamogram. La Sha and I went to the mamogram and sonagram that morning. During my sonagram the tech had call back the doctor. And as he was looking at the screen i was watching his face. His expresion was not a good one. He seem very concern. He sat me up and said this looks like the start of breast cancer. He i can't be for sure without a biophsy. He look at the tech and said lets jump on this and work her in for the biophsy this afternoon. He said my breast tissues are really dens and he needed to do the bio to be sure. The tech schedule me to come back at 1:30 to have 3 biophsy done.

Went back for the bio they did one on the right side and one on the left and one under my arm where the lymp node were. I ask how they did it. Explain they would deaded the area. Then insert this needle and as they are watching on the screen they will hit the part of tissue they wanted to cut. Once he was in there all i felt was him pushing and it was a hard push but didn't hurt. Then he said ok fixing to cut. He counted to 3 and then click like pulling a trigger and then he took the needle out and put the tissure in a speciman jar. After that he said he is going to put in a marking, like a clip just to mark the spot that he took. He did that to both breast. Then he took a needle and took so fluid from my lymp nodes. I ask him about the clips if they would come out and he said not unless they would do surgury. He said the left one probley would alwasy stay in cause more then likly it was ok. Then he said "the right one life I said before I really think it is cancer and if it comes back ok am going to insit that they do surgury to get more tissue out". After he was done he said I will call Moncreif and have them set you up with a breast surgeon. Thats how for sure it was cancer.

What Cancer Cannot Do

Cancer is limited...

It can't cripple LOVE
It cannot shatter HOPE
It cannot corrode FAITH
It cannot destroy PEACE
It cannot kill FRIENDSHIP
It cannot suppress MEMORIES
It cannot silence COURAGE
It cannot invade THE SOUL
It cannot conquer THE SPIRIT
It cannot steal ETERNAL LIFE

Stay tune for part 3!

My Story!

2010-10-08T07:59:00.004-05:00

This is the beginning of my story.
In April of 2010 I noticed a lump or knot, I call it a knot. In my right breast behind my nipple, off to the left side. I remember thinking that it was strange since it wasn't there before, but I have a lot of cyst so I figure it was just because I was having my monthly period. So just didn't give it too much concern, it will go away when I finish my period. Didn't give it no mind for the rest of the month.

May rolled around and it's that time again and the you know what was still there. Hard and a little bigger. I told my youngest daughter about it and she came to look at it. I ask her to feel of it and she said no I can see it. She told me I need to have it checked out. I told her I couldn't since I didn't have any insurance. Later on that month I was changing for bed one night and I noticed that the breast was taking a different shape. It looked like it was caving in under the Areola I thought that was strange. I text my youngest daughter and told her my breast was caving in. She said I got to come see this. She came down stairs and I showed her. She said "Mom you really need to have that checked out." By this time it has gotten harder and bigger. The nipple was really sticking out and the knot was really noticeable. Went to go visit my oldest daughter and showed her. She suggested that I wait and see if the knot is still there come June's month cycle.

Come June it was still there. So I knew it was not right and it should not be there and it was not going away. So what can I do? I had no insurance. I decided to apply for JPS Connection. I printed the application on line filled it out and gathered all the info i needed to fax it in. I waited, waited and waited never heard from them. I finally called and talked to the social worker that was handling my case and she said she needed a bank statement. That's hard to send when you don't have one. I went on line and look at my Ace statement and printed it out and faxed it in. Still heard nothing.

Continued at a later time stay tune for more!

IT IS NATIONAL BREAST MONTH

2010-10-02T06:34:00.003-05:00

Stay tune as I tell my story coming up next week From the first time I found lump to present. I hope you all will read and understand the diesease.

Rhonda

Chemo Day!

2010-09-30T10:10:00.002-05:00

Well yesterday on 9/29 was chemo day. Went in and got my blood drawn and then went back to see the doc. My lab work was ok. Dr Oommen came in and he ask me about the size of the tumor. I told him I thought that it is gotten harder and bigger and that it was draining. So he felt of it and said that it has gotten harder and then he measure it and it was still 13 cm. Not any smaller and the softness went back to being hard. He went to go call Dr. Chow and talk with her. Then he came back and they decided to stop chemo since the tumor is not responding to it. So now we will try hormone threphy. I will be taken the drug probley for the next 5 to 10 yrs. The tumor should respond to it and make it smaller. I will return in 3 weeks to see him and then in 6 weeks to Dr. Chow. The only thing with the hormone threphy it will take longer to see and diffrents. The side of effect will be about the same but not as bad. But no hair lose I know what you are saying did I loose my hair for nothing. It will grow back it really was not for nothing cause I will have a whole new head of hair. The hot flashes will be worse oh boy can hardy wait. So I guess it me going back to shaving my legs and under my arms once it starts growning. They are still staying on the same time line. They still plan on doing surgury in Jan.

I have God's word that it is all going to be good.

I thank you all that reads my blog! Stay tune cause has this goes on this fight there will be more to read.

ASK QUESTION.
BE INFORMED.
LIVE ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Rhonda

Monday Morning And The Sun Is Shining!

2010-09-27T09:09:00.002-05:00

Well another week gone and a new one here. This week get to watch little Miss Layla Bug all day to day and tomorrow lets see how she does with momo. Then Wednesday its off to baby school for her for the rest of the week. And it is chemo week again. Last time I had chemo Doc said that the tumor got smaller by 1/2 cm and softer. Then last week it seems to has gotten bigger and harder and draining. I will let the doctor know this week when I see him. Its going to be a great week. Well Schera and I clean all morning and Layla and Jayden is playing nice togeather. So now it is time for me to go shower and clean up. Stay tune for my next posting.

You all have a great day!

Rhonda

Early Morning

2010-09-22T06:04:00.002-05:00

Yesterday went to Look Good Feel Better. It was good got lots of make up and a scarf. La Sha went with me we got to eat while we were there. It was nice they show us how to put on make up and tie some scarf. It was nice meeting new people that is going thru the same thing that am going thru and listening to there stories. Some were very sad. It just makes me think mine is not as bad as it seems or sounds. I am very thankful.

Rhonda

Bald & Beautiful!

2010-09-21T12:14:00.003-05:00

Well, Momo's hair is about all gone. She's been letting it fall out on it's own. Between clogging the shower and shedding anytime her hair is touched she has finally gotten to the point where she has has enough.

So today is the day she has decided to SHAVE her head.......

... and she is the most BEAUTIFUL bald woman I have ever seen!

Bald is Beautiful

Chemo after effects

2010-09-19T06:58:00.002-05:00

Chemo was really good this time. Didn't get sick not once. Friday after chemo Wed. I started to feel pretty bad. A little sick to my stomach. Went to Burleson that day and pick up my check and came home to lay down for a little bit then went back up to Texas Onco. and got fluids and didn't feel to good the whole time I was up there but after I was done went home to lay down again for a little bit and when I got up felt better. Went over to La Sha to have a sleep over with Peyton and he had a list of to do things for me and him to do it was cute. He even had a box out beside them to check them off as we did them. Got up Sat. and went to work and all day felt a little more tired then normal. But It is Sunday and I am off work and so happy that I don't have to work. I get to go to church today I'm very excited about that. Have not been in such a long time. Well been up since well really since 1am. Woke up and had trouble going back to sleep. Then 6am row around and Jaxson was up he was feeling sick so got him a wet rag and we both lay back down but I could not sleep and he was saying that his stomach was hurting. So we both got up and I fix us breakfast and then he got sick. I ask him what he ate last night and guess what he had. Mc Donalds even thou he said he only ate french fries I think they should lay off Micky D.

Got to go get ready for church.

Later

Dr. Results

2010-09-16T07:09:00.002-05:00

Well had a doctor appointment yesterday on 9/15. Did lab first and then went to see doctor. He said that tumor has gotten softner but not much in size diffrent. He was hoping for a little more diffrent in size but glad that it has gotten softner. He said we will do a couple of more chemo. But any way got lab done and the blood counts was really good and I have a good bounce back. Then went to go do chemo started chemo around 12 noon and was done around 1:30p. So far every thing has turn out ok. Sleep pretty good except woke up at 3:30 and told not go back to sleep. My scalp is tender and starting to loose my hair. I only notice when I rub my hands thru my hair alot comes out. Shreai took me and La Sha show up and we play phase ten while I was getting my treatment. Then went to church last night and did ok had a head ach but it was a good day.

Rhonda

Good Night To All!

2010-09-13T23:10:00.002-05:00

Yep not for me. I have to go to work at 11:45p until 8a. But hey at least its some work. My hours got cut back so much. But I will make it some how I always do and that some how is by God! Just turn all my money problems over to him. Well am tired try to lay down around 8p but just toss and turn. It is now 11:10p and I guess I will be leaving soon to go to work. I should be ok the lady that am watching should be sleeping so I will try to get some rest also. Well hope everyone is resting nice. See you all soon!

Another Sleepless Night In White Settlement!

2010-09-07T01:43:00.002-05:00

I finish taking all my meds so I hope that this is the last night that I don't get any sleep. It pretty much sucks. I am so tired and worn out. I even took the meds really early but here it is 1:45 a.m and up doing nothing. Can't clean or move stuff around everyone is home and don't want to wake the boys up. The day went pretty good I guess didn't get any sleep we to a cook out and seen all the kids there that was nice. But so much drama and then when I get home there is just more drama. La Sha give me a real nice old desk but I think it is more like a vanita. I love it I got to make room for it in my room so nothing happens to it. It reminds me of my moms vanita she use to have. I think I can make it work in my room i measure it and it should be ok. My room might be crowed but that is ok I can still move around and get into my dresser and closet I am good. Well not sure what today now guess I will try to go back to bed or maybe read I don't know. Any way see you all soon.

Good sleeping!

Here we go again!

2010-09-06T00:56:00.002-05:00

Its 1 a.m. and still awake. I think it dong on me yesterday that it was the meds. they doctor put me on after I dehydrated to give me energy. Well I think I have a little to much energy now. Saturday night and early Sunday night got no rest at all. Sleep maybe from 3:30 a.m to 5:30 a.m. Did some cleaning and then would try to go back to bed. Up withing 30 mins. doing some more cleaning all night. And it just hit me last night. So here it is Monday morning and up again. I told Shreai that I was not going to be up cleaning all night again. Lay in bed until 1:am and said here I go again. But I am not cleaning was thinking about hanging pictures since I have been here almost a year and not pictures are on the wall. Sunday morning my son call to check on me and ask how i was doing. He ask about my hair told him it was good. He told me he was going to go get his cut. He later sent me a text pic of his hair cut shorter then normal and said "For you mom I love you" It was so sweet and made me feel so good. I am not wired but let me tell you am so wide awake. I have one more day of these meds to take and then maybe I can sleep. Its not really borther me that i can't sleep but thats what I am suppose to be doing and thats what I want to do. I cry last night cause i could not sleep don't know why I guess cause that is what a person does at night. And not the least bet tired. I know I have a long road ahead of me but I sure hope that I don't have many nights like this. Well guess I better get off here and start hanging pictures I might even clean the recliner i'm sure i will find plenty to do.

See you all soon!

Its Late!

2010-09-04T03:04:00.004-05:00

Well here it is 3am on I don't know what day it really is. But here I am I can't sleep. Been up since 1:30am. Got me some candy to eat and water to drink. Mop the living room floor. Started some laundry not sure why. Watch a little TV. Nothing really on this early in the morning. I should be in bed sleeping since I have to work tomorrow.

The latest on me. I guess i told you all that I have cancer. Went thru alot of test. Like bone scan,ct,pet scan had a echo done. They all turn out really good. So we know that it has not spread thru the rest of my body good thing. Well went for my chemo on 8/31. It didn't take as long as I thought it would. They hook me up to some fluids. Then hook me up with some nausa meds. Then started me on one of the chemo drugs which they had to push thru with a sringe it turn my urine red not to be alarm it went away. After finish with that one they hook me up with another does of chemo drug that one was a drip thru the IV into my port. Being I had my port put in on 8/27 let me tell you that when they stuck that neddle in oh my gosh did it hurt since it was still fresh. Candice took me to my first chemo round. It was kind of fun she did my toes leopard paints I will have to get some one to take a picture and post it up here she did a really good job. I had my lunch not really knowing what to expect I went ahead and ate wanted to have some thing on my stomach. La Sha show up and it was a nice surprise to see her there. I guess I got done by 2:30pm started to feel tired. Candice took me home and I lay down for a little bit. Got the boys ready for bed and down for the night. Was not to long before I started to feel a little sick not to bad. Had Shreai bring me a wet rag but I made it thru the night.

I will resume this at a later time I think I am getting sleepy now.

Main support group: GOD

My support group: La Sha Newsome
Jonathan Thomas
Candice Thomas
Mandi Payne
Shreai Thomas

Others suppor group: Bert Newsome
Schera Thomas
Bryan Payne
Shelly Crooks
Drea Stewart
Jerri Masrange
Jack Doisher
Grace Bapitism Church.
Sidney Clark
Linda Rorak and John Don Looney
Chris Harmon

What more could a woman ask for with so many people beside her.

I love you all!

Moving Right Along

2010-08-27T05:22:00.002-05:00

Well another day off alot has been going on in my life. I recently found out that I have cancer. Went of a biopsy on July 2 had a mamogram and sonagram done. Then went back that afternoon and had 3 biopsy done. July 8 test came back it was breast cancer in the right breast and lymph nodes were involved. One of my clients got the ball rolling as far as getting to doctor and getting things started. Moncrief Cancer Center sent me for all the test and told me what I need to do as far as getting on medcaid. Got on medcaid got set up Cancer Care Service. Got several names of breast surgoen. I pick Dr. Chow went to see her on Aug. 4. she check me over then La Sha and my sister Shelly and I went into a conferance room and she went over every thing with us. It was a lot to take in. Well have things to do I will get back with the details and her finds and goals and treatment plan for me. Stay tune for more.

Love,
Rhonda

Another Day Off

2010-08-20T06:48:00.002-05:00

Well here we go again another Friday off. But not sure if it is really a day off. None of my days off seem like days off. Its either doctor appointment or running errands. Any way I have had a large speed bump in my life that has slow me down. But I will not let it slow me down. But I do think that it is trying to get me to slow down. Maybe thats what it is all about is to slow down. I have always live in the fast lane. I think it is time to slow down and enjoy some things. I will explain the speed bump in my life at another time. My page is being work on by my beautiful daughter La Sha and she is doing such a good job.

Well today will be me going to pick up my check and taking Ms Layla with me and then coming home to get ready to go to La Sha and watch Peyton and spend the night with him. Well I will see you all next time so its not good bye its later!

Am Back!!!!!!!!!!!! Hello to all!

2010-08-07T06:57:00.003-05:00

Am back on blogging. Been such a long time but figure I would get back to blogging. Alot has been going on since I have been away. I hope everyone is doing good. Not sure how often I will get to blog since I work so much work around 60 hrs a week it was 72 but they drop it down to 60. Still alot of hrs but I am all right with it. As I take this journey in my life I figure I will blogg it and see how it turns out am not good as La Sha when it comes to writing things. Well have a long day at work so I will get off here and start getting ready. I get to go to my football player house today and watch him Mr Looney. See you all soon!

Great Day In The Morning

2010-01-21T10:15:00.002-06:00

Well here I sit again doing nothing. Still no job but steady looking. But life is good and there is one out there for me. I have a lot of help from La Sha working on my resume and helping with things that I don't have money for. Then there is a couple at church that has my resume and working the network for me. Got my resume out on Job.com, Hotjobs.com, and Workingintexas.com. Its not easy but there is something out there. It gets pretty boring setting around here but don't even have gas right now to go look anywhere. I am reading when it gets to much sitting around here. How does one sit around and do nothing I don't think I could every be retired. Well guess I better get off here and do nothing. I will keep you all updated on job search.

Lots of love!

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-24T05:51:00.003-06:00

I remember my last Christmas with my mom. It was 1974 we all spent the night at my grandmothers house. I remember waking up and my mother was laying beside me staring at me with a smile on her face. She ask me If I wanted to come see what was under the tree. She got me this big teddy bear and a small dimond ring. It was a good Christmas. Like any other Christmas holiday you go back to school in Januray. I think it was Januray 5 1975. Get up mom takes us to school and you get back into the swing of going back to school. Come home and thats when thing change.

Not sure why this is hitting me hard this year but it is. All this week it has been on my mind alot. I am very lucky this year I have all of my kids home for Christmas and to stay and all of my grandkids what more can a mother ask for.

I wish every one a MERRY CHRISTMAS

Weekend

2009-05-26T17:37:00.002-05:00

Well another holiday gone by. Went to the lake on Saturday and camp out with Bubba. Had a good time there were so many people there to come and see him. It was nice Schera had a big banner made for him and every one sign it and we had his picture taken with it. Jaxson was glad to get to go fishing and camping with him. The food was good. We got to talk to La Sha on the computer she got to see everyone. Sunday they had a fish fry there was alot of fish. It would have been better if there was more fish that didn't have bones in it. Them little bones are hard to eat around. But it was all good. Then the rain started to blow in. It was neat watching it off the water the lake turn green and you could just see the rain coming. Saw a rainbow and it was so pretty the colors were so bright and pretty and then it went away and then another rainbow came again it did it three times. But I didn't think it was going to stop raining sure was glad when it did. By the time it stop raining it was time for bed. Came home Monday and and unloaded the car and just sit around for the rest of the afternoon. Back to work in Tuesday and it was not as bad as I thought it would have been. Then I will be off again on June 4th and 5th. And then again on 11th. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday.

Your Day!

2009-05-10T12:57:00.000-05:00

We Love you Momo,

Love Bert, La Sha, & Peyton

DON'T NO ONE ASK WHAT AM TALKING ABOUT!!!

2009-05-04T18:44:00.003-05:00

Well here it is Monday again and we start all over again. You just get up and go to work come home and you know I don't have to say it. Saturday was ok we got a lot of rain and it was so hard. But as always we survive the storms. Sunday night I shampoo my carpet it looks pretty good. Maybe next weekend I will do it again. Didn't go to sleep until after 2am had thing on my mind alot of disappointment running thru my head but hey so be it. People just don't have respect for other people or their rules they make and they don't have respect for their self. They don't have respect for other people feelings and for their belongings. They don't even have respect for their own things. How sad is that. You can even do every thing for them and they just take advantage of you talking about use and abuse.

But I had a very good day at work it was extremly busy so many cars down loaded. I took on another account at work I just hope that I can handle it. We get graded at work on how fast we get the cars in. One of my accounts I got a 5 and that is the highest we can get. It has not been a 5 in such a long time. It took me 8 months to get it there so I am pretty proud of myself. Now I have to be sure and keep it there and plus keep the other two main accounts up there boy the pressure plus I have to do a report on one of the accounts. But hey I can do it I just have to keep my system down and pace it.

Now that you have heard me vent and praise myself am out of here.

P.S. don't even ask

Smile

Rain, Rain Go Away!!

2009-04-25T13:09:00.002-05:00

All of this crazy rain we are suppose to have and the wind is crazy. But I guess with out the wind it sure will be hot. Just got in from Jaxson game he had his picture taken with his team. He really did good today. He didn't cry not once. He usually cries when he can get the ball. He is such a ball hog. He wants to make all the goals. Well Jonathan will be home in about 3 weeks and can't wait to see him I am so proud of him. La Sha her heart has gone down in size and I am so excited about that and plus she is going to be moving down here can't wait. Jonathan should be back in Nov. for good then all my children will be here home. I am so lucky to have them back all togeather. And all my grand kids will be here.

It was such a long week am so glad it is over. Seem like at work the first part of the week was so busy then by the middle of the week it started to slow down. Friday was nothing but trying to fix a lot of problems with getting cars pickup. Fridays are not good days to have problems since it is a short day for us. Well little Miss Layla should start daycare Monday wonder how that is going to work. Shreai will be working and going to school. Sure wish the wind would slow down so that I can ride. There is so much going this summer and am excited about it all. Jonathan coming home for a while and La Sha moving back home. Well looks like it is going to be a boring afternoon here. I hope you all have a great weekend.

Later

Here I am

2009-04-14T07:09:00.002-05:00

Back from the reunion. Me and Shreai decide that we were not going to any more reunion unless they are here in Texas. Driving with little kids is just to much. But all in all we had a good time. Once we really got started it was ok. Starting out driving was not to much fun it was like a night mare. We are going to have to train Jayden to leave his set belt on. Layla was good she didn't cry not once while we were on the road thats a good thing. I sure was gald when we got there and got out of the car. Coming home was better then going. It was nice seeing some of the Thomas's that I have not seen in a while. Its amazing how family just spreads out every where all over the United State and you loose track of them. Even close family they seem to just go there own ways when they grow up and don't keep in touch. Its ashame that it takes either a reunion or family crises to bring them togeather again and its only for a little while how sad it that. The kids had a good Easter hunt and Jaxson got some cool things for his birthday he sure loves his DTS game I think he played it all the way home Sunday. He is a big 5 yr old now. I did get out there and play with him no one else wanted to play hide and seek with him or tag. So Schera, Shreai and I we played with him. Just imagine an 50 yr woman out there running and hiding yes I had a buzz and was feeling good. ( Did you notice I said a 50 yr woman and not 50 yr old) ! I still would have run and play with him even if I didn't have a buzz since no other kids would play with him. He was kind of sad cause he didn't get to go swimming or fishing. He wanted to go fishing so bad. When his daddy gets back he told him that he would take him camping and fishing. Well am at work so I guess I better get off here. You all have a wonderful week and yall come back yall hear!!

Hello

2009-04-09T05:03:00.002-05:00

Well its Thursday morning and almost time to leave to go to Toledo Ben. Its been a rough week so what new. Any way last Sunday I got news that La Sha is not coming down in May :(. But thats ok cause guess what and every one knows she is coming back to live :) how excited is that I had tears rolling out of my eyes. I am so excited about that. I can't wait for her and Peyton, and Bert to come home. I went to work so excited Monday I had to share the news with every one. Everyone is very excited about that. Well Tuesday was ok just busy at work. It was slowing down but now it is picking up. Wednesday I went and got my state ID how exciting is that. By the end of this month I will get to go get my driver liecens and please don't ask. Wednesday night went shopping at Walmart with Schera and the boys and Layla wow not sure how I handle that. Walking around not to mention my buggy keep wanting to go to the left so you put an car seat with a baby in it and you have a 5 yr. old holding on to the left side of it, does not make it easy to keep it straight. By the time we got out of there my back hurt so bad. Some of that might be cause I feel out of the shower the other day and again don't ask. Tonight I get to go shopping again with Schera and the boys to get more stuff for the weekend. Well guess I better get off here and get ready for work. Life is good and every thing happens for the good it might not seem like it sometimes but in the long haul it does. Every thing falls in place for the good. Thank God for what you got and for what is coming your way.

Love you all!!!

GOAL!!!

2009-03-23T15:39:00.004-05:00

saturday was Jaxson's FIRST soccer game. He is Jersey # 12. It went pretty good. He made 2 goals! When the coach high-fived him he got really excited. one part of the game he got a little upset when he couldn't kick the ball. but...other than that he did very well. Him and his PIC (partner in crime) is Aiden. Jaxson did very very well for not even getting to go to his first practice! His next game is going to be on saturday.

Natty Flat TX

2009-03-21T08:17:00.004-05:00

The world largest rocking chair! They wanted me to climb up on it to have a picture taken but I think not. The one on the top is The BBQ Smokehouse we ate at. I will post the other pictures later. This is hard and I don't like it cause it don't look right. I ask Shreai to do it for me but she never did. :(

Past Weekend!

2009-03-19T07:04:00.002-05:00

Well as far as last weekend. I know I am behind in posting. Last weekend was good except that it rain Saturday and nasty out and cold. Sunday was a little better went for a bike ride. It was cold starting out. I didn't wear my chaps or my gloves I really thought that it would warm up fast but it didn't. I was cold riding in the morning. We left out around 9am and met some other riders off of 377 there was like 12 other bikes in the ride. We went thru Grandbury and took some roads where it was really snake like roads it was fun and head into Stephenville and went thru Morgan Mill and ended up in Natty Flat Tx. Pictures will come soon I will have to get Shreai to post them for me. Natty Flat was just a small little town we stop there and ate at a Smoke House it was some good BBQ. All the building there was nothing but cedar wood. They had a little store there that sold nothing but furniture made of tree bark ceadar wood and mesquite It was so pretty even the store in side was made of it. Natty Flay is know for having the largest rocking chair there will be a picture of the chair. It starting warming up at this time. Headed back home was not to bad until we got into Weatherford and they wanted to ride to PK. I told them I had to get home so my friend brought me home and the others headed to PK. Coming home I don't care how much that sun was shineing it was colder going east the wind was horrible it was beating me up. I really thought it was going to be warmer. My legs hurt so bad after not riding since last June. I have to get use to it again. I went home took off my boots and laid on the couch was glad to get home. Wednesday went to the doctor and every thing was really good. Got a clean bill of health. So my kids are very proud of me and I did it for them they are happy and that is all that counts. Well like I said I will have those pictures up soon. Love you all and have a wonderful rest of the week. I got to talk to Jonathan today and it was great to be able to talk to him. I am very proud of him.

Later gator!

Work What Can I Say

2009-03-11T18:43:00.002-05:00

Well Friday the 6th they had laid off 8 people from my work. One was a manager that I use to work for. She had been there for 18 yrs. It was sad and it hit the department hard very unexcepted. I knew that there were going to be lay off when we merge with the Ft Worth Auction. This is the second around of lays up there. Then come Monday the 9th they lay off Jeri from the same department she was a supervisor. And the girls that work under them they move them down stairs and place them under accounting. They got rid of a whole department in just 3 days. Everyone at work is walking on egg shells. Some are even packing some of there stuff for just in case they are next. Its like who is going to be next on their hit list. Looks like they are starting with the big dogs the ones that make money. They know that it is hard to find a job right now so why would they do this to their employees. It not like the company is any trouble or going bankruptes. The Ft. Worth auction is the one doing bad. They just got rid of two good workers that knew what they were doing. The new bosses in accounting don't have any ideal how to do their job. They really did not think any of this merging thru before they decide to do it. If our Ford Reps. decide to take their cars some where else because the auction mess up they might as well close the doors. But every thing happens for a reason. Maybe Jeri got laid off to help her daughter out since she has cancer. I was very sad when they let Jeri go. It just wrong, just wrong.

Its Tuesday!

2009-03-10T05:30:00.002-05:00

Well here it is Tuesday I am behind in posting. Lets see Saturday was ok I guess didn't do to much. We went and ran some errands like to Walmart. We got Layla bug a pack and play to take if we go to the family reunion she will have something to sleep in. Went home and just hung out the rest of the day and did nothing it was very windy out.

Sunday I went for a ride with a friend have not been riding since last June. It was kind of hard on me since it has been so long. We rode to Joe Pool lake and then back to Lake Arlington walk around some parks it was nice and it was so pretty out side. Got home around 3 pm. went to the pet store and got Layla some fish. Then did nothing for the rest of the day. We were going to the park but Layla was so fusses we just came home and stay home.

Monday well it was ok found out about some people that laid off. That happen Friday and I was off so I just found out about it yesterday. Its kind of sad since they really don't know what they are doing. This is their second around of lay off. They will have another lay off come next month around three is a coming. Well guess I better get off here and get ready for work. I am going to try and get in the shower before Jayden wakes up.

Have a awesome week inspite of all cold weather again and rain but we really need the rain.

Later!