24 More Days!

Lets start out by saying this weekend was awesome! Wish that it didn't have to end but I can't have every thing.

Did my radiation today and it was ok. They had a little trouble lining me up with my markers. So they had to do more x-rays. Then I guess they finally got me line up right. After that it went really smooth. On the other hand it was a busy day. Got up at 6a and then went grocery shopping and then to radiation, then drove to Arlington to pick up little boss lady (Layla). Kept her for the rest of the day. Went to CVS to pick up her and my medicine. Layla had to take with her a tool box of crayon thru out the whole store. Then went over to Walgreen and pick up more medicine. Then to end they day cook dinner and got on computer and did all my farming. Boy I need to get a life.

25 More!

Yes I am still counting. The way I see it when am done with my radiation its just another chapter in my life that is close and another one will open.

Its been a busy day today. Spelt in until 7a and then got ready and went to go visit my aunt that I hadn't seen since my mother pass away in 1975. It was so good to see her and also got to see my uncle. Then went to go do radiation it went really quick and getting pretty red. After that had to go pick up Jaxson from school then went to my other home. Visit with them for a while. And looks like a busy night for me tonight. I get to baby sit the G-babies. But tomorrow am busy, busy, busy! And can't wait looking forward to it. Get to see my friend! What more could I ask for.

Look out weekend!

26 More Days!

Only 26 more days and the weekend is coming up. Had a little longer wait today to get radiation done. They took x-rays today and then the treatment. X-ray are to make sure that my markings are still line up. Every time I go in they strap my feet and turn me this way and that way to be sure I am line up with the beams. I guess the treatment are making the skin tighter cause today when I lay my arm in the holder it pulls more in my chest and is so much tighter. I really thought that after doing this and stretching my arm every day it would get better and not so tight. But it is just the opposite. I guess care it is cooking the tissues and skin. Got alot of good remarks about my hair so it wasn't such a bad day!

So now its time to eat then pick up Peyton and go pick up Layla. Then take Peyton to basket ball practice and then to Jaxson Baseball practice. In stead of being a sports mom I am a basket ball and baseball MOMO!

What would I do with out my grand kids to keep me running and keep me living? I love them babies!

Another Day Gone! 27 more!

27 more days to go moving right along. Starting to turn a little red or as they said blush to the train eye. Today was ok my chest felt a little tighter then usual. Had a little more trouble getting the arm in the holder on the table. And again today was Bolus day. Alot of cream afterwards and the chest is tender when I put on the cream.

I get to start back to work next week. Am down for 3 nights. Then the next week should be for 4 nights. Still going to take me a while to get on my feet. But I will get there and I have plans!

Love like you have never been love even if you don't get it in return!

28 more days to go!

That's right 28 more days to go. I got a week under my belt. Today was a good day. Seen the Dr. Shide the oncologist. I will see her every Tuesday. She said my skin still looks ok. But she didn't really except to see to much of a change since its only been a week. She made sure I was using the cream. So tomorrow will be the use of Bolus. They didn't use it today so the radiation went a little deeper. Any way it has been really a good day.

To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp. He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

Concentrate on this sentence.....The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.

Monday!

29 more days to go!

This Monday has been really good. Went to take care of some stuff in Burleson and then went and did radiation. I am feeling pretty darn good. Nice day for a ride. But we can't always get want we want. So make the best of it!


MY WISH FOR YOU!

_Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.
_Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.
_Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.
_Where there if fear, I wish you love and courage

Weekend!

Had a wonderful weekend. Lets see after the week being so long and busy I was ready for the weekend. Saturday took the little boss lady (Layla) to the doctor and then came home and got her something to eat. Got a text asking if am ready head your way. Low and behold my friend wanted to take me for a ride. Told him I would meet you at the duplex. I was ready to go and ride. We road all day the wind was a bit much but I didn't care I was on the back of the bike and with him. Then went to his sister and ate and I felt very privilege. I must be doing something right. I got to ride two weekends in a row. Now that I have weekends off I can do so much more and not miss out.

I hope every ones weekend was as good as mine!

Radiation 30 More!

First week of radiation done. 30 more treatment to go. This week was ok except Thursday but I made it.

30 more to go!

Suck it up and life goes on!

Crappy Day!

Today was horrible set at a doctor office for over a hour. Check in early also and didn't get seen by the doctor. I was at my breaking point. I finally told them I had been waiting for a hour and I have to reschedule. I have to go to my radiation appointment. She told me that she would have the nurse call me. I left and went out to the van and call the nurse and told her I need a new appointment. I told her that I waited over a hour and I have other appointment. She said am sorry can you come after your radiation appointment. I told her no I have to be some where at two. She said do you want me to call radiation and have them reschedule that appointment. I told her now I need to reschedule. I was so up set. Went and did my radiation and its hard afterward. My chest is more sore and tight. And arm hurts from being pulled.

Then went to go pick up Shreai up from work and had a flat. Now I know how to change a tire. But never change one on a van. The spare was under the van didn't have a clue on how to get it off. Shreai didn't either. Some guy came by and show us how to get the spare down.

What a day! Ready for it to be over with. Be so glad when the weekend comes.

Radition Markings!

Went today to do a trial run for my radiation treatment. I laid on this table with my arms over my head for a good 30 minutes. The tech took like 6 x-rays. In between the films she mark me with a permenet marker and took measurements where they are going to do. On my right side I now have beside the 3 tattoos I have draw in blue lines from my collar bone down the center of my chest off to my side up my side under my right arm pit. Now keep in mind this is done with a blue permenet marker. Then on each corner they put that good tape so if the blue lines come off they would still know where to hit with radiation. The tech did say try not to wash off the blue lines except I could wash off the one above my coller bone so that when I wear my blouse I want be self conscience does it really matter if I am. The blue marks don't measure up to having your breast remove. Now tomorrow I will get the first shot done. And then after that Monday thru Friday at 11:15 every day until I have done all 33 treatments.

What a experience!

Sunday

Got up and went to church came home to a nice surprise. My friend came by to take me for a ride. It was so nice to get out and enjoy the sunshine. The ride was awesome rode to Burleson and had a good time had good food and sat around and visit. The ride back was great the weather was so nice it wasn't to cool didn't need my heavy jacket it was great. Then another surprise came Sunday night and I was surprise at that. That was even better so can't complain back about my Sunday. Just need more of it!

1 month check up!

I went to see Dr. Chow today. Blood pressure was way up not sure why it was 151/92 to high for me. Dr. Chow said am healing really good. I can go back to work in March 1 but still not lift any thing over 10 lbs. She said she is going to give me a break from her. I will see her back in 3 months on May 18th. She made sure that I went to go see Dr. Oommen and ask what he had to say. I told her that I got scan and tattoo for my radiation and when that starts. And told her that I was going to see Dr. Clovon on the 17th and she said that's good and that will be one less problem to worry about. So every thing is looking good she release me to drive. So now am ready to start radiation every thing is looking good. I am on my way to a new point in my life. Continue to ride with me on my journey and see how radiation goes it will be a experience.

Smile its getting better!

Radiation!

Went to Dr. Shide yesterday and got scan and tattoo for radiation. They put these wires on me and then scan my chest. After scanning they took pictures of my chest. I thought when they told me they were going to take pictures I thought they were talking about the scan. But no they took a 35 mm camera and took pictures of my right side and the top of my chest and left side. After that he tattoo once on my right side and then tattoo me on the center of my chest and then once on the left side. After that he took a permanent marker and put a big X on each tattoo then put a clear tape on them. The tape stays on and the tattoos they are not to be scrub off. They said they stay on pretty good. I go back next Tuesday for a trial run and they told me not to wear a good shirt cause they were going to mark my chest up pretty good. Not sure the reason for that but it is a one time thing. Then on Wednesday I go for my first radiation treatment and then every day Monday thru Friday. A six week long 33 treatments. And the cream is a prescription it is about 100.00 a tube. I am glad to finally get this going and get it over with.

As far as my appointment with Dr. Chow it was suppose to be today. But since Ft. Worth ISD was close so was her office. So I still have not been release to go back to work or drive. But I am already driving sometimes we have to do what we are not suppose to. I will have to reschedule tomorrow to see when I can get in to see her.

Here it is Friday!

Well this has been a crazy week. First got a call Tuesday night from Dr. Shide they cancel my appointment due to the weather. Then come Thursday I call and cancel the other appointment due to the weather. School has been out all weekend due to the weather. This crazy Texas weather you never know about it. I just wish spring and summer would hurry and get here. I want to go riding and do some other stuff. I have two dr appointment next week and then one on the following week. Lets just hope that the weather is good. Being off for 6 weeks is hard. I just don't know what to do with all the time I have.

Any answer let me know.